I feel like dying, i dont wanna tell anyone. the internet is my only outlet. What do i do ? helpme through thi?

I was in your spot for like 6 years of my life. I would suggest. Maybe looking up some homeopathic help, all you do is go to the health food store. You may be able to find something but I have no idea. Being highly depressed, I know that all too well. I took an anti depression which helped very well. But you don't want to tell anyone. I don't know what to say I didn't want to tell anyone until I made a plan to kill myself and thought it was crazy and that I want to be alive and live and be happy so I got help. Maybe join a yahoo group and find something for you. The support groups are very helpful. I would suggest maybe a therapist. It would be something just you and them know your talking And they can't tell anyone else unless you say it's fine. So maybe try that out. I know for me talking to someone helps very much. But Good luck if you want to chat Im here.